Author: eisleyhallows
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finding my lion heart
yesterday i did a big thing and asked for help. today i realized i did not once say please. i was angry at my situation, angry with myself, terrified, and these conditions do not make a good foundation for being polite… but they do make the perfect one for action. my need of $1350 was…
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on figuring out that i’m gay
when i was in second or third grade, i learned the word “lesbian” from the neighbor next door, and i was instantly enraptured in it. i think i asked her two or three other times what it meant, over the next couple months. i’m not sure if i simply could not remember the meaning of…
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on executive function
i have to do the thing. i know i have to do the thing. i am the only one who can do the thing. i WANT to do the thing. doing the thing is the only thing i can think about. i have a lot of anxiety about not doing the thing. so why can’t…
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i can feel the wave coming.
i struggle with chronic fatigue syndrome. (also known as, myalgic encephalomyelitis) and one of the most important things i’ve come to be able to recognize with this is when a flare is coming up. i can feel one now, and it’s panic inducing. i have so much i need to do. i can’t afford to…
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high five to me for putting a roast in the crock pot last night!
the foundation i am laying now… the things i’m doing to better myself and set the stage for my future career… it’s a lot like my great idea to grab a roast and throw it in the crock pot on low overnight. building my future is basically exactly like slow cooking. i start with a…
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practice until you can’t get it wrong.
when we are stressed, that’s like, prime time for old habits to make themselves known again. in times of trouble, we fall back on to the familiar. when i am stressed, my body hurts all over. i am exhausted. i lay in bed as much as i can and try to ignore whatever exists outside…
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sometimes we don’t know what needs to change. we just know it has to get better than this.
i didn’t change until i knew exactly what i wanted out of life. that required me to start liking myself enough to actually care about what i wanted. and i wanted to help people be their favorite selves. and figuring THAT out was only possible through the love given to me by people who truly…
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so. tired.
nobody in my household has slept well tonight. no specific reason. each of the kids has been up for different reasons at least once over the course of the night, and after four times of being woken up just as i’d drifted off again, my body has given up on sleeping. it is 5:30am. i…
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i just want to help the person in front of me.
which is why i became a coach instead of a therapist or a doctor. don’t get me wrong!! i did HIGHLY consider both of those paths, and still consciously decided to choose this path. not because i couldn’t do the work, or because it would take too long, but because the scope is different. coaching…