Author: eisleyhallows
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on executive function
i have to do the thing. i know i have to do the thing. i am the only one who can do the thing. i WANT to do the thing. doing the thing is the only thing i can think about. i have a lot of anxiety about not doing the thing. so why can’t…
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i can feel the wave coming.
i struggle with chronic fatigue syndrome. (also known as, myalgic encephalomyelitis) and one of the most important things i’ve come to be able to recognize with this is when a flare is coming up. i can feel one now, and it’s panic inducing. i have so much i need to do. i can’t afford to…
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high five to me for putting a roast in the crock pot last night!
the foundation i am laying now… the things i’m doing to better myself and set the stage for my future career… it’s a lot like my great idea to grab a roast and throw it in the crock pot on low overnight. building my future is basically exactly like slow cooking. i start with a…
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practice until you can’t get it wrong.
when we are stressed, that’s like, prime time for old habits to make themselves known again. in times of trouble, we fall back on to the familiar. when i am stressed, my body hurts all over. i am exhausted. i lay in bed as much as i can and try to ignore whatever exists outside…
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sometimes we don’t know what needs to change. we just know it has to get better than this.
i didn’t change until i knew exactly what i wanted out of life. that required me to start liking myself enough to actually care about what i wanted. and i wanted to help people be their favorite selves. and figuring THAT out was only possible through the love given to me by people who truly…
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so. tired.
nobody in my household has slept well tonight. no specific reason. each of the kids has been up for different reasons at least once over the course of the night, and after four times of being woken up just as i’d drifted off again, my body has given up on sleeping. it is 5:30am. i…
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i just want to help the person in front of me.
which is why i became a coach instead of a therapist or a doctor. don’t get me wrong!! i did HIGHLY consider both of those paths, and still consciously decided to choose this path. not because i couldn’t do the work, or because it would take too long, but because the scope is different. coaching…
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i thought i didn’t care, evidence points to the contrary
something i’ve noticed over the first week of blogging every day… i’ve recently been of the mind that i really don’t care what other people think i should be doing. but in writing these posts, something that keeps coming up is that i don’t feel like i am “allowed” to do or enjoy certain things.…
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on existing while fat
a couple months back, i had a realization i’m honestly still coming to terms with. for so long, my unconscious belief was that you can’t be fat and pretty at the same time. and, i’ve always seen myself as pretty, so by extension i’ve never seen myself as fat. obviously, that is not true and…
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i think the new moon brings out the best in me.
the new moon seems to connect me to that line better than any other lunar phase. maybe it’s a shadow thing. not sure, but i dig it. sometimes when i sit down to write, like today, i have no idea what the finished piece is going to look like. but, it happens all the same.…