Tag: just me
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finding my niche
for the first months of my journey as a changeworker, i swore i’d never niche down. “there are way too many interesting things about me,” i said. “there’s no way i could ever pick just one.” maybe that was very october libra of me. maybe it was my demand avoidance. see, since becoming a life…
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on dopamine
the past few days have felt like i’m moving through peanut butter on all levels. the first of the week went really well for me. i met a huge goal, aced an interview, and generally felt great! and then the calamities happened. nothing like new and horrible, but internally, every system that can be going…
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don’t like scheduling. i move with rhythms instead
when i first found out i had adhd, i was ravenous for knowledge. i wanted to know everything i could know about working with this neurotype, now that i’d finally been diagnosed. one of the most consistent things i found was “you need structure. schedule your days.” and like i tried it. it worked for…
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finding my lion heart
yesterday i did a big thing and asked for help. today i realized i did not once say please. i was angry at my situation, angry with myself, terrified, and these conditions do not make a good foundation for being polite… but they do make the perfect one for action. my need of $1350 was…
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on figuring out that i’m gay
when i was in second or third grade, i learned the word “lesbian” from the neighbor next door, and i was instantly enraptured in it. i think i asked her two or three other times what it meant, over the next couple months. i’m not sure if i simply could not remember the meaning of…
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on executive function
i have to do the thing. i know i have to do the thing. i am the only one who can do the thing. i WANT to do the thing. doing the thing is the only thing i can think about. i have a lot of anxiety about not doing the thing. so why can’t…
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i can feel the wave coming.
i struggle with chronic fatigue syndrome. (also known as, myalgic encephalomyelitis) and one of the most important things i’ve come to be able to recognize with this is when a flare is coming up. i can feel one now, and it’s panic inducing. i have so much i need to do. i can’t afford to…
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high five to me for putting a roast in the crock pot last night!
the foundation i am laying now… the things i’m doing to better myself and set the stage for my future career… it’s a lot like my great idea to grab a roast and throw it in the crock pot on low overnight. building my future is basically exactly like slow cooking. i start with a…
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practice until you can’t get it wrong.
when we are stressed, that’s like, prime time for old habits to make themselves known again. in times of trouble, we fall back on to the familiar. when i am stressed, my body hurts all over. i am exhausted. i lay in bed as much as i can and try to ignore whatever exists outside…